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Can you write hector fort x FC Barcelona intern reader where she's talking with her supervisor in the area the boys are training and Hector got interested in her, then she and the supervisor go talk w the boys and Hector start showing her his interest for her. (sorry for my bad english😭)
Only angel — Héctor Fort.
Pairing: Héctor Fort x Fem!Reader
Summary: When Héctor first saw you, he swore you looked just like an angel.
Word count: 980+
Disclaimer/s: fluff , reader is a sports photographer intern + the supervisor is made a up person (oc sort of) !
A/N: haven’t written for Héctor in a while so hi!! this was lame and bummy asf but whatever..
Walking through the quiet halls that lead around Ciutat Esportiva building, you take a peak into one of the open doors. Luckily for you, it held just the person you were searching for.
“María?” You call out, pressing a hand onto the wooden door and pushing it open further. “It’s me.”
The dark haired woman glances up from her desk, smiling at the sight of you. “Oh! Good! You found me, I was beginning to wonder wear you were.”
María was a friend of your aunts, so when she found out about your interest in sports and photography, she offered you an internship. It’d made your year, and today was your first official day.
“Yeah, I got a little… lost.” You chuckle, closing the door behind you. Finding a seat in front of her desk, you clasp your hands together. “Where do we start?”
María’s eyebrow lifts, amusement flashing across her face. “Eager, aren’t we?”
“Very.” You nod vigorously, “and a little nervous.”
Standing up, she grabs her camera and another, “this one’s for you.” She beckons for you to grab it, which you do with wide eyes.
“Oh wow.” You exhale, “this is.. thank you.”
“You’re welcome, now, let’s go meet the team, shall we?”
The walk up to the field was, well—it took a lot of breathing. The stairs had nearly winded you. Brushing a few pieces of hair from your face and straightening your shirt, you take a look around. Your eyes landed on a lot of different people.
It was hard not to be in awe seeing the players of your favorite team only feet away from you, live in action. María, beside you, watched you with a smile. “Impressed?”
“Very.” You laugh.
Twenty feet away from you stood Héctor Fort, his eyes trained on you curiously. Leaning to his left, he nudged Pau. “Who’s that?” He asks, pointing in your direction.
Pau followed his line of sight, shrugging when he didn’t recognize you. “No clue. But if she’s with María, i’m assuming family or maybe an assistant.” He glances at his friend, who was still staring. He smirks, “chill out, you don’t know how old she is.”
“Why would you say that?” Héctor gasps, swatting the back of Pau’s head. His friend laughs, jogging away from him.
Héctor’s eyes look back to you, his heart skipping a beat as you laughed at something María said. You looked like an angel with the sun shining down on you as your smile brightened.
When it came time for their water break, María leads you to the group. You followed her, nervously fidgeting with the straps that held her camera securely around her neck. “Boy’s!” The woman called out, waving to get their attention.
Hansi Flick, their coach, turned to face you first. He says something to the team, which you couldn’t hear, but it has their rowdiness turning into calm behavior.
“I’d like you to meet my new intern,” María introduces you, and in turn, the guys all say their ‘hello’s’. “She’ll be working alongside me and when i’m gone, she’ll take my place. Please be kind to her.”
Your lips had formed a pursed lipped smile while nerves wracked your body. It was awkward having so many eyes, much less all men’s eyes, on you.
Once that humiliation ritual was over, you found a seat on the sidelines where María suggested you sat while she ran back to her office to grab a few more supplies.
You snapped pictures here and there, not realizing you’d focus on one person in specific. Héctor Fort. He was your age, your friend’s favorite player, and he was cute—very photogenic.
You were clicking through the photos you’d taken, deleting the bad ones and smiling proudly at the good ones. You failed to notice when a shadow came over you, too enthralled in your camera.
“Hello?” A deep voice spoke above you, nearly scaring you. Nearly.
Snapping your head up, you come face to face with the man who belong to the picture you were just looking at. “Oh! Hey! Sorry, I didn’t notice you! Do you need something?”
Héctor shrugs, “just wanted to introduce myself. I’m—“
“Héctor.” You force a quick smile, “I know.”
A faint flush spreads across his cheeks. “Right. I suppose you would.” His eyes drift down to your camera, “is that me?”
Now it’s your turn to blush. “Uhm, yeah. I was taking individual pictures while I wait for María.” There’s a beat of silence, in which you realize he’s waiting to see it in full. “Oh! Here.” You take the strap off around your neck and diligently hand the camera to him.
Heart spreads across your hands when his fingers graze yours. He examines the picture, an impressed look passing over his expression. “Wow, this is.. really good.”
You laugh, “it’s really not that impressive. But, thank you anyways.” A sense of pride swells in your chest, his approval meaning more to you than he might have known.
“Could you send it to me?”
Blinking at him stupidly, you don’t catch onto the fact that he wanted you to send it to his number. “Sure! I can have María email it to you.”
Héctor suppressed a smirk, your obliviousness only made you all the cuter. “I meant send it to me, personally. As in, my number.”
Oh! Oh, right. Because he definitely wasn’t lowkey asking for your number.
“For sure, yeah. Like, me? Or, María..” You trail off. You sounded silly stumbling over your words so hard.
“After practice, find me. I’ll give you my number.” He smiles, “it was nice meeting you,” he says your name, and the way it rolled off his tongue so smoothly had your heartbeat stuttering.
“You too.” You force out, waving goodbye to him as he walks away. You were really starting to love this internship.
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Colorado woman
Warnings: (Abusive past relationship, past relationship trauma, illusions to sexual trauma,language, slight ptsd, drinking, smoking, and I believe thats all. If I missed any feel free to let me know)
Summary: Josh had given up on looking for a partner. After the last woman he swore he’d never love again. After two years of being alone his brothers started to believe him. They decided to take matters into their own hands. Lucky for them his dream woman awaits in Colorado … you.
: This is the longest fic I’ve ever written, so please give me a little bit to fix any mistakes!
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“Let’s go out Josh. We can go to that bar Sam loves, and find you a partner. Or at least someone to fill that void”
“How many times have I told you? I don’t want a relationship. The last thing I want is to find someone drunk at a bar. Gross”
“Jeez Joshua look at you. You’ve lived at my house for two weeks now. Admit it your starting to get lonely and you don’t like it”
He laughed out loud “I’m not lonely I just don’t want to be stuck at my house all the time. Is that so bad?
“You have been sleeping in my spare room for two weeks. That’s a lot different than wanting to get out of the house for a while”
“I mean I’ll leave if your kicking me out” He laughed it off.
“That not what I’m saying Josh. Tell me what’s your type?”
“Don’t have one. I’m not like you Jake. I like to do my own thing. I wouldn’t be happy tied down to anyone”
“I’ve been doing my own thing for eight years, and my relationship is thriving”
“Well congratulations. That’s you not me. I promise you the last thing I want is a relationship”
“Then make it a fling, but for gods sake put yourself out there”
“You know I don’t see how this is any of your business or concern”
“I want you to be happy Josh, and I know that you’re not. You can brush me off like you always do, but you are lonely and it scares you. You know I don’t care if you stay with me, but you shouldn’t have to. You’re like damn near depressed all the time and that worries me Josh”
“Do you what scares me more? Getting into a relationship and everything being the same as the last one. I’d rather be lonely than risk having to feel like that again”
“Now was it that hard to open up to me? You’re not even looking. I’m not saying you have to jump into anything, but when’s the last time you’ve tried?”
“I have tried they just never work out”
“Josh you haven’t tried since … her”
“And so fucking what? You know what Jake but out. You’re not helping. All you’ve done is bitch at me” Jake just stared at him “what?”
“Josh” he placed a hand on his shoulder “All I’m trying to say is don’t give up looking. Don’t shut everyone out because you’re afraid. I want to see the light come back to your eyes. Because right now Josh I’ve never seen you so dull. Keep an open mind that’s all”
He sighed rubbing the back of his neck “Okay Jake”
~
“Do you think we should teach them more tricks?” Sam said to his girlfriend Hannah as they watched the dogs play in the yard. They heard the doorbell ring. “I got it last time” Hannah said.
Sam opened the door surprised to see who it was. “Didn’t expect you today what’s up?”
“I need to talk to you about Josh”
He took Jake to the backyard where they were sitting. “What’s up? Is he okay?”
“Sam he’s been staying at my house for two weeks. Not that I mind him there what so ever, but I worry for him. He needs someone new in his life. Hell at this point he needs a friend at least”
He looked at his girlfriend puzzled, and she spoke “he stayed at our place a few weeks ago. Sometimes he comes over for dinner as well”
“He’s scared because of that bitch. I hate her for everything she’s done to him”
“I mean I’m sure he is scared after all that. She practically abused him id probably give up for a while too”
“But it’s Josh the most loving person we know. He’s wasting all of his potential he needs someone. He’s not happy I’ve never seen his eyes so sad”
“You really wanna risk it again? We don’t know everything he went through in the first place. I think we just need to let him figure this out”
“It’s been almost two years Sam. He won’t do it himself”
“He’ll be fine we shouldn’t push him. If he gets hurt again it’s all our fault. I don’t want that guilt on my chest”
“I’m with Jake on this one. The last time Josh was over we smoked together. He got very upset, and was kinda spilled a lot to me. I promised him I wouldn’t tell, but Jake’s right I think he needs helps”
“That’s what I came here for thank you. Do we know of anyone?”
Sam sighed “There’s that one girl that we met at that festival”
“You want him with a junkie?”
“She wasn’t a junkie!”
“Sam honey you’re oblivious. I know someone that might be perfect. Only thing is she lives in Colorado”
“Josh always says he wants to live in the mountains. What’s she like?”
“Well she’s currently kinda in the same situation as him. Rough love life scared to move on. He would fall in love instantly. She’s beautiful”
“Personality?” Jake asked “she better be an angel”
“Just picture Josh, but as a female. I’d say she’s a more little outgoing than him. She reminds me of him a lot, but they are very different in their own ways”
“Good start” Jake said nodding his head.
“She very soft spoken. Overall she’s just a very kind hearted person. She’s the only person I know that would never hurt him”
“You’re positive she’s single?” Sam asked
“Yes she always says she talks to her dogs more than people. She lives alone, but says she hates being alone. She loves company because she doesn’t get it much living out in the mountains. I just know she would love Josh. They fit each other”
“Well you know it’s convenient that we’re off tour. How the hell are we getting Josh to Colorado?”
“I can talk to her. She would adore everyone coming out there. Let me see when she’s free” she stepped inside to make a phone call.
“Josh has always handled himself, but I’m watching him fall apart. He doesn’t act like himself anymore. He’s not content. When he’s home he’s pacing around the house. Or he’ll leave and distract himself for hours” Jake told his brother.
“I guess I didn’t realize how bad it’s gotten. He puts on a show for everyone. I suppose I wasn’t able to see through it like you did”
“The last thing I want is for him to get hurt again. He just needs his confidence back”
Hannah returned with a smile “everyone free next week?”
~
“Colorado?” Josh questioned picking at his fingers “why out of the blue?”
“My friend invited us to come stay with her for a week” Hannah said convincingly.
“Who’s your friend?” Josh asked perking up an eyebrow.
“Well her name is y/n, and I haven’t seen her in a while. She invited me and Sam, but we thought you guys might want to come”
“I don’t suppose I have anything better to do. Next week you said?”
Hannah got excited when he agreed. “Yes next week, and we will leave early that morning. This is gonna be so much fun!”
~
The air was cool, the green of the leaves was almost gone, and they were minutes away from arrival. A cozy little cabin in the middle of nowhere. Just you, and your dogs. You’ve spent the past week cleaning, stocking up on food, and preparing your house for guests. It’s not often you get them. Living so far away from everything your use to being alone. You would be lying if you said you weren’t beyond excited. You heard serval cars disrupt the once peaceful gravel road. Your dog’s ears perked up as you all headed towards the door. You hoped they wouldn’t be afraid of the large dogs that causally lounge around your home. You took a breath and opened the door.
“Why am I nervous?” Josh whispered to Jake.
“New place new person. Hannah said she’s a lot like you so maybe you’ll get along well”
“This isn’t a set up is it?”
He laughed “You think I would take you all the way to Colorado to set you up?”
“Yes … yes I do”
He sighed “well I didn’t. It’s just a trip Hannah invited us on. I know as much as you do. Just relax it will be fun”
He squinted his eyes at him “whatever you say”
You stood on the porch watching as they all unloaded from the cars.
“Y/n!” Hannah ran up hugging you.
“I missed you so much. I’m so happy you’re here!”
“This is Sam my boyfriend”
“I know you” you giggled “heard lots”
“Good things I hope. This is my bestie Danny”
“Hi Danny. Your hair so curly I’m jealous”
“Thank you” he laughed.
“This is Jake and his girlfriend” They waved at you, and you smiled back.
“And this is Josh”
“Oh” you paused “hello I’m y/n”
“Nice to meet you” he said quietly.
Maybe you were crazy, but you felt a connection. You known him for five seconds but you feel drawn to him. His fluffy hair that his fingers nervously ran through. His sense of style was definitely your taste. He was more soft spoken than the rest. You liked that a lot. He just had this air about him that made you want to know him.
You invited everyone inside, and you realized it was already late in the afternoon. You showed them around your place before the sun started to set. Everyone started to settle in and feel more at home.
“Very lovely place you got” Jake said admiring the cozy atmosphere.
“Thank you it’s Jake right?” You asked.
“Correct” he gave you a wink.
“I don’t wanna be that person, but where are we sleeping?” Sam asked.
“Sam don’t be rude” Josh corrected.
“No worries. So I only have one guest bedroom so the couples will have to fight over that” you laughed. “There’s an air mattress, and a couch”
“We call the bedroom” Jake shouted smiling at his girlfriend.
“Oh fuck you” Sam rolled his eyes.
“I mean he did say it first” Danny laughed.
“I promise the air mattress won’t deflate on you in the middle of the night. It was quite the investment”
“Then we call the air mattress” Sam said.
“I never mind sleeping on a couch. I’m used to it” Danny laughed.
Josh becoming worried “I guess I’ll be sleeping on the couch too?”
“No you’re sleeping on the floor Joshua” Danny said shaking his head. “No way in hell am I sleeping on a couch with you”
“Thank god I don’t have to share a bed with him” Jake said. “Tired of waking up with bruises”
“Rough sleeper?” You asked
They all laugh “absolutely. I used to be forced to share a bed with him when we were little I never got any sleep. He tossed and turned all night, and he kicks you … hard. Cons of being a twin”
“I’ve been slapped a few times” Sam said.
“I’m sorry did you say twins?”
“Yeah can you tell?” He joked.
“You know I can definitely see it”
“I don’t mind sleeping on the floor” Josh sighed
“Poor Josh” you said.
“Poor josh? What about the victims” Jake said making the room laugh.
“Well we can figure it out later. I’m not letting you sleep on the floor that’s for sure” you say to him. “Here’s the remote. Turn on whatever you’d like. Also there’s beer and stuff in the fridge” you said going into the kitchen to start on dinner.
Danny got up grabbing enough for everyone. You could definitely tell who the siblings were. As Jake and Sam bickered over the remote. Danny tried to intervene between the two. Which ended with a pissed off sam, and a cocky smirk from Jake.
Josh rolled his eyes, and walked into the kitchen. “Need some help?”
“Oh you don’t have to do all that”
“I don’t mind really” his eyes shifted to the potato’s lying in the countertop. “I could peel those if you needed”
“That would be lovely thank you”
It started out in comfortable silence. Only speaking to confirm he’s doing right. As he watched the sun set from the window his mind began to wonder.
“So” he cleared his throat. “how long have you lived in Colorado?”
“Well I visited when I was 15 fell in love, and I moved when I was 19. Been here ever since, and I wouldn’t change it for the world. You’re from Nashville?”
“Not by choice” he laughed “originally I’m from Michigan, but with the band and all. We had to move closer to the studio and stuff”
“How’s that all going?”
“The band? It’s been a lot to be honest. Rewarding, but exhausting. I’m just glad we’re on a break from tour”
“I don’t know how you do it every night. I can barely work without getting drained”
“You figure it out eventually I suppose. Knife?”
“Top drawer. What’s it’s like traveling the world, and playing to people every night”
“It never gets boring I’ll say that. When you’re up there looking out into the crowd. They love you with all their heart. It’s like they understand you in a sense. You can really feel the love up on that stage. It makes up for the exhaustion I suppose”
“That sounds beautiful. Maybe I’ll get to come to a show one day”
“So what made you invite everyone out here? Gotta be an adjustment from peace and quiet all the time”
“Oh it wasn’t my idea. I’m glad everyone came out though it’s nice to have a change”
“Oh? I was told something different wonder why” he thought it over in his head
“Well now I’m curious what you were told”
“The story was that you invited Hannah, and she invited us”
“She called me” you laughed hard. “That’s a silly thing to lie about”
He knew. He knew exactly why they lied. He knew Jake lied to his face in the car. Now that he’s met you he knows exactly why they’ve brought him here. You. Now he would be lying if his said his heart wasn’t skipping beats right now. Only now that he’s figured it out his nerves are shot.
“Good thing this cooks pretty slow so we can go relax for a while”
He followed you to the couch and hesitantly sat down beside you. His eyes shifted from the movie to picking at his finger, and back to the movie. He had scabs around his fingers from it. You could tell he was on edge a little bit. Something changed since your talk in the kitchen but you didn’t know what. He seemed nervous around you now. Although you couldn’t understand why you knew what might help. “Do you smoke?”
He nodded his head with a smile “me and Josh are gonna smoke if anyone wants to join”
You walked outside and a few of them followed. Passing it in a circle and making small talk. Josh took a drag off the joint and closed his eyes. Blowing it out and nodding his head. “Damn that’s good shit”
“Told you so” you laughed as he handed it to you.
“It’s so pretty out here. Wish I lived in the mountain” Danny said admiring the view.
“I couldn’t imagine living anywhere else” you said. “Shit I left my drink inside be right back”
“Jacob Tomas Kiszka” Josh said stern. “You brought me here to hook me up?”
“I already told you I wouldn’t-”
“I made the mistake of asking her. She said this wasn’t her idea to invite us out. Instead she got a phone call from Hannah”
“Josh listen” he said before Hannah cut him off.
“We were worried about you Josh. She’s in the same situation you are. Give her a chance”
“How did you know? How did you know we would click? Because I’ve never- I’ve never done that with anyone”
“I just knew”
They were quick to end the conversation when you walked back outside. You all stayed outside for a while passing the joint around. They gave you the last hit, and you threw the roach out into the yard. After everyone was done eating dinner the night started to get fun. Everyone had a good buzz going, and the house was lively. Josh started to come out of his shell, talking louder, and with more excitement. “My god you guys are funny” you went into the kitchen to make another drink. Josh followed you also needing a refill.
“Doing alright?” He asked you.
“Haven’t been this messed up in a while” you laughed.
“How are you feeling?”
“I’m almost to your level” he smiled. “I never told you but-”
“Y/n holy shit! You got more weed? I feel fucking great” drunk Sam comes shouting in the kitchen
You laughed “go into my room and there’s like 4 laying on the tv stand” you paused waiting for Sam to leave. “Never told me what?”
“Oh never mind” he waved a hand in the air.
“But-”
“Y/n” Sam came back in tugging at your shirt. “Come smoke with us”
“Fine. Josh you coming?”
“I think I’ll set this one out” he smiled at you.
“Josh is sweet” you said sitting outside with Sam and Hannah.
“Oh he’s a sweetheart” she said.
“I can tell” you put the joint between your lips and lit the tip.
“Single” Sam said and Hannah gently smacked him. “What? It’s true”
“Oh”
“He’s been through a lot relationship wise, but so have you” Hannah said.
“Don’t let him fool you he’s not always that quiet”
“Well neither am I” you laughed “he seems nervous”
“I suppose he is” Sam said taking a hit “he has been just kinda down recently. Plus his ex kinda took his self confidence from him”
“I guess he just gets lonely a lot, and it’s catching up to him” Hannah said.
“I know how that feels” you said pointing to the mountains “it’s just me and my dogs out here”
“It’s got its perks I would assume” Hannah said.
“Oh yeah definitely” you stared for a moment “he’s cute”
“Think so?” Hannah asked excitedly.
“He has kind eyes. I like his hair it’s fluffy. He just seems so nice”
“All I’m gonna say is he’s interested”
Josh sat on the couch with his brother. “Has she said anything to you? About like me or anything?”
Jake laughed “no but I can tell she’s taking a liking to you”
“Oh definitely” Danny chimed in “how do you feel about her?”
“I dunno she just kinda has this glow around her, and I wanna be part of the light”
They looked at each other and started laughing “oh he’s in love Danny”
“She seems perfect for you. Gonna thank me or what?” Jake teased taking a sip from his drink.
“Yeah yeah whatever”
“So what move are you going to make? Let’s get this started right?” Danny asked.
“Yeah you’re funny. I’m done making the moves. If it’s meant to be then it will be”
They both rolled their eyes “well shit”
“Hi” you said slamming open the door. It was obvious by your state that you were pretty messed up. “Joshua. Can I call you Joshua?”
“If you’d like” he turned to look at you. You plopped down beside him on the couch.
“Joshua!” You shouted “I have an idea”
He jumped when you yelled his name. Laughing about how you startled him. “What’s your idea?”
You shuffle through your phone looking for a song. When you found the perfect one you jumped to your feet. “Wanna dance with me?”
He smiled, and he cheeks blushed pink. “I would love to dance with you.
You wrapped your arms around his neck, and his hands held your waist. “oh shit. I’m so sorry I stepped in your toes”
He smiled down at you “don’t worry about it darling”
“Darling? I like that” you laid your head on his chest. He danced you around your living room. By the time it was over almost everyone had joined. It was magical to see your house so lively and full of love.
“You made me dizzy” you giggled and sat down on the couch. Your head laid on his shoulder and you begun to get sleepy. Danny went into action being the dad of the group. Helping Jake as he stumbled into the guest room. He helped Sam blow up the air mattress, and grabbed blankets for everyone. He filled up a glass of water and sat it on Jake’s bedside table. Making sure everyone had a least a little water to drink before bedtime.
“What we gonna do about you?” You turned to Josh. “Want to sleep with me?”
“Good luck sleeping” Danny joked.
“Oh he won’t bother me I’m a deep sleeper. Nothing wakes me up”
“They’re not wrong. I don’t wanna hurt you in your own bed”
“Joshua shut up” Sam whispered.
You laughed at his attempt to help his brother “come on Josh”
“Are you sure I mean I-”
“Josh shut up” Sam and Danny said in unison.
You reached out your hand, and he grabbed it. He headed into the room “you’re room is cute”
“Thank you most the decor is diy or thrifted”
“They look amazing. Did you make this?”
He took interest in the large painting on the wall. You nodded “yes I love to paint”
“That’s so impressive. I love art myself, but I could never make anything like this”. He gently ran his fingers on the edge of the painting.
Your cheeks now bright red, and a soft smile on your lips “thank you Josh. I’m sure you could do better”
“Definitely not. I’m not really a painter. I design my own stage clothes. I sketch what I want it to look like, and then somebody makes it. I like it because it’s always exactly how I want it to be. I take inspiration from all kinds of stuff, and make it into one thing. It’s more than just an outfit really. It’s almost like another person when I put them on”
“Like each outfit is its own art piece? It’s like painting. When you’re in a good mood your art is going to distribute something completely different than if you were gloomy. The paintings are entirely different it’s almost as if different people painted them.”
“That’s exactly it! You understand” he smiles.
“Artists to artists of course I understand”
You let him look around a bit longer before excusing yourself to go change. When you came back he was still looking at the painting. He had pajama pants on with a white sleeved shirt. You tripped over your feet walking into the room. Stumbling around, and your vision was getting blurry. “Stumbling around a little. You okay?”
“Hmm” you reached for his shoulder to stabilize yourself. Without much thought he picked you up. Tucking you into the bed, and lying down beside you.
“If I hurt you or keep you up please wake me up. I don’t mind sleeping on the floor. I just-”
“Shh you’re not gonna bother me. Stop stressing about it. I can tell this is something people might have made you feel bad about”
“Yeah well try hurting the people you love and have no control over it”
A lazy finger pressed against his lip “shh don’t worry about it. Joshua”
You both laid there in silence trying to drift away. The silence was deadly, and you tossed and turned. Unable to fall asleep, and your mind raced about the man next to you. In a whisper you spoke “Josh”
Sleepy he replied “yes?”
“Can you hold me?”
“I would love nothing more”
When the sun started to rise you two were the last ones awake. Jake crept open the door worried you might have ended up on the floor. Instead he found you tangled up together. The sheets hanging off the bed, and he was holding you protectively.
“Sam come here … look” Jake said pointing at the two of you.
He poked his head through the door “awe they look so cozy”
“I wonder how long they’ve been like that”
“All he needed was a cuddle buddy I guess” Sam said.
You started to stir as the sun shined through the curtains. “Shit” they giggled and shut the door.
Josh’s eyes peeked opened to you lying across him. He closed his eyes for a moment taking it in. You were you wrapped around him tightly. One leg hiked across his waist, and the other twisted in his leg. Your arm laid across his chest, and so was your head. He was loving every minute of you. Wishing this moment would never end. However, you started to wake up. His grip was strong hopeful you wouldn’t move. You looked up at him and smiled. “Good morning”
“Good morning. Sleep okay?” He asked.
“I slept amazing. You?”
“Best sleep I’ve got in a while”
“Your so warm that’s probably why I slept so good. It’s usually freezing in here. I wasn’t all over you too much right?”
“Not too much at all. Been a while since well you know”
“Feels nice to be held. What happened to the sheets?”
“Not sure about that one”
His eyes were glowing, and his face had a smile you haven’t seen before. Dosing off a little bit with the warmth of his body. You’ve never felt so comfortable in your life. The sheets felt like honey on your skin. You wondered if you found heaven, or at least peace. You two laid tangled up together for at least an hour. Realizing the time you sighed, and climbed out of your side of heaven. The two of you stumbled into the living room. “Well good morning love bugs” Sam teased which resulted in another playful smack from his girl. “Leave them alone” she whispered.
“Checked for bruises?” Danny said.
“I don’t think he moved one bit. Except the kick the sheets off. Or maybe that was me” you shrugged your shoulders.
“Maybe all he needed was someone to hold” Jake said.
His face turned bright red and his eyes got big “oh my god shut up. How did you know that?”
“I have my ways”
“Creep” Josh rolled his eyes.
You giggled at him, and walked into the kitchen. You opened the container of coffee grounds and put it into the maker. Making a pot then going to your bedroom to get dressed. Jake and Josh were talking in the kitchen as they drank their coffee.
“So” he paused taking a sip “seems to be going well”
“Last night was the first night I didn’t wake up in the middle of the night”
“Is that why you’ve been up doing fuck knows what?”
“Yeah I’d wake up at like three in the morning and I could never go back to sleep. So I’d get up and start doing stuff”
“You’ve scared the shit out of me when I walk downstairs to get water, and you’re standing in the kitchen. You really gotta go back home bud”
“I know I know. Hey maybe I won’t have too” he joked.
“Gonna become a mountain man?”
Josh talks with his hands that’s very obvious. What he doesn’t do is pay attention to where his hands fly around. The conversation has peeked his interest, and when his hands flare out he hits the open container. Coffee grounds go everywhere. Josh’s face turns white, and he starts to panic.
“Oh fuck” he repeated over and over. “Here we go. It was going so good, and I’ve fucked it all up”
“Josh it’s just coffee grounds I’m sure she’ll understand it was an accident”
“You don’t understand Jake. Do you not fucking remember?”
“I remember, but she nothing like her. She won’t get mad I’m sure of it”
“I’ve ruined everything. Why am I like this Jake?”
“You haven’t done anything wrong. Josh you’ve been the best I’ve seen you in so long. Let’s not lose progress over coffee grounds …. Josh”
Still he panicked, hyperventilating, going into his head and -
“Josh how fucking stupid are you?”
“I’m sorry it was an accident I’ll pick it up”
“I just fucking poured that drink. You are fucking useless”
“I’m so sorry. I didn’t mean to. I’ll clean it up”
“Why am I even with you? Your so damn pathetic”
“It was just an accident”
“Shut the hell up and pick it up. I don’t need to hear your whining”
“I’m trying but your yelling at me”
“Are you gonna fucking cry about it? Go ahead cry see if I give a shit Josh”
“Josh!”
“Huh?”
“Did you hear me? She’s gonna get the broom for us”
“You told her? Why would you do that? We could of figured it out”
“Josh breathe. Take a damn breath. I’m gonna say it again she’s isn’t like her”
“Oh no what happened?” you said walking into the kitchen.
“I’m so sorry it was an accident I’ll clean it up”
“Oh no worries. Shit happens” you waved a hand in the air.
“I’m so sorry I-” his fingers ran through his hair. Processing your response he looked at you confused “Wait what did you say?” he said softly.
“I said shit happens. I’d be a fool to get mad over something so small. Go sit down I’ve got it”
He looked at his brother confused. “You’re not mad? Why aren’t you mad? I spilled this everywhere”
“Don’t beat yourself up. I’m clumsy as hell. Always spilling stuff. Go sit down” you handed him his coffee cup “here. Go take a breath”
Josh exited the room, and you turned to Jake for some answers. “Jake” you whispered.
“What’s up?” He grabbed the broom as you held the dust pan.
“Is he okay? Why did he get so upset?”
He swept the grounds into the dust pan. His face shifted to an almost confused look. Then you thought maybe it was an angry one. But his eyes looked hurt, and watched him quietly.
He sighed “his ex is a horrible person. She treated him like shit, and made him feel bad when he made a mistake. I don’t know everything, but I know she did get physical sometimes”
“That’s horrible he doesn’t deserve that”
“No he doesn’t. There was a trip we were on and he spilled her drink on accident. She cussed him out, and called him all these names. He was cleaning it up and she kicked him with her boot. I got a little rough shoving her away from him, but it should have never happened. He stayed and I don’t know why. I think he was afraid to leave her. It was like an intervention I swear. We all sat with him and told him he deserved better, and we helped him break it off”
“But he’s so sweet how could anyone treat him that way? I want to fix this”
He sighed again, and you could tell something was weighing on him “can I tell you the truth?”
You nodded, and he spoke “your the reason we’re here. We thought maybe you two would hit it off. We were worried for him … very worried. Josh has always been the most outgoing person, and it hurt watching him fade. Hannah said that you were single, and it was just a hunch. We just wanted to help him. I’m sorry I don’t want to pressure you”
“So that’s why everyone lied to him” now it made sense. “I don’t click with people. There’s never been a person I felt instantly connected too. Except yesterday when I laid eyes on Josh. It’s been a day, but I’m glad you brought him here. We’re both wounded, and because of that I think we can heal each other. Thank you Jake”
You decided to put there plan in motion. You got up to find Josh “Hey follow me”
You went out the gate and started walking down a rocky path. He didn’t ask where you were taking him nor did he care. He watched as the dogs switched between walking beside you to scanning the area ahead. You never minded the dogs running off when on your walks. You got closer to the mountains and Josh’s eyes began to glow. You hiked down to the river. A deep spot that nearly looked like a pond. The mountain ran above it making the spot secluded. “Look at this place. It’s breathtaking”
“It never fails to impress me. The waters cold I don’t usually get to swim. I just come here to relax”
He reached his hands in the water “I mean it’s not that cold”
“Wanna get in then tough guy?”
He reached to remove his shirt “wait!”. You took off running and he ran after you.
You made it to the top of the smallest cliff. “Your kidding me right?”
“What? Are you scared?” You teased him.
“Maybe a little. Sure it’s deep enough?”
Rolling your eyes at him you asked “do you trust me?”
“I do”
You took your shirt off revealing a lacy white bra, and panties to match. He looked away quickly, but his face already turned red. “It’s okay” you giggled
“Sorry” he said with his eyes glued to the ground.
“Don’t be. Human nature ya know. You’re turn”
He removed his shirt, and stripped down to his boxers. You placed your hands on his shoulders grabbing his attention “Listen whatever we went through let’s try to move past it. I’ve been scared too Josh. For two years I was afraid of any interaction with a man. I could barely go places by myself”
“What happened? Only if your comfortable to answer”
“Started at a party my drink got spiked. I don’t remember anything or if anything happened to me. I thought it was because he like me so I started dating him. He would hurt me often. I thought it was normal, and I convinced myself he loved me. The cycle continued until my friends got me help. It was relationship after relationship, and it was all the same. That’s what I thought I deserved I suppose. I’m still in therapy and I continue to get better every day”
“I guess it was my first serious relationship. Or so I thought, but I meant nothing to her. I never dated much in high school. All she did was yell at me. I couldn’t spend enough on her. It was never enough. She would hit me and it’s not that it hurt that bad. It hurt more knowing she wanted to harm me. I loved her, and she wanted nothing more than to hurt me. My brothers got me away from her thank goodness. I’m also in therapy I never thought it would help, but it has. And I know I’m so awkward, but it’s almost as if I don’t know how to act. No one’s ever been as gentle with me as you are”
“We will heal together. This jump is us letting go”
You reach out your hand, and counted down. With no hesitation he jumped with you. Falling farther than he thought, and his body rushed with adrenaline. You both hit the cold water, and gasp coming back up. He slicked his hair back, and tried to catch his breath. “I take it back this water is freezing”
“That was so fun Josh” you shouted holding his shoulders. “Oh my god I feel so alive. Do you feel it Josh?”
He nodded his head and wrapped his arms around your waist. You threw your arms on his neck. “Yeah I feel it”
You held on to him tight, feeling his heart beat against yours. You stayed in the water far too long in this cool weather. You just couldn’t make yourself let go. You put your forehead against his. “Can I kiss you?”
He smiled softly “I would love that”
You leaned in placing your lips to his. Your body felt warm for a minute. Like a shock of electricity ran through your veins. Your lips moved against him. You let the last kiss drag out before you pulled back “I cant feel my toes”
“I can’t feel a lot of things” he said, and you busted out laughing. You hiked back up to the top to grab your clothes and headed towards the house. You were shivering and your teeth were chattering. When you arrived back at the house you couldn’t feel a thing. Everyone was sitting outside, and their neck snapped around to look at you two.
“What the hell happened to you guys?” Jake asked
“Oh you know we just jumped off a cliff. No biggie” Josh teased.
“We left you two alone for an hour and you jump off a cliff” he laughed.
“I’m gonna go change, and start the fire” you kissed his cheek.
Causing everyone’s jaws to drop. “Did she just-?”
Everyone gasped excitedly, and Josh just seemed to glow. He nodded his head proudly, and started to tell the story. His hands were flying everywhere as he spoke in detail.
“Hot chocolates on the stove, and the fire has been started”
“Actually that sounds quite nice” Jake said.
As the temperature dropped everyone piled in the house. Laying around the living room with hot chocolate in hand. A cozy movie playing, and the lights turned down.
You turned off the stove, and stepped into the living room. Looking around the room seeing everyone so content. You just smiled wishing it could be like this forever. He noticed your giddy smile “Come here love”
You cuddled up beside him, and he threw the blanket over you two. The house was warm, and everyone was completely relaxed. You felt as if you were melting into Josh. You thought this might be the most comfortable you’ve ever been. Your eyes started to get heavy, and before you knew it sleep had taken over.
You feared for the end of this week. Knowing it was coming soon. He would leave and go back to his busy life. You would be here like you always are. For now his fingers ran through your hair, and his lips kissed your forehead. He couldn’t quit place the feeling he was feeling, but he knew one thing.
He was home.
#gvf#greta van fleet#josh kiszka#jake gvf#jake kiszka#josh gvf#gvf imagine#josh kiszka fluff#greta van fleet fluff#greta van fluff#josh gvf fluff#gvf fluff#danny wagner gvf#sammy kiszka#tooth rotting fluff#second chances#joshua michael kiszka#josh kiszka fic#joshua kiszka#josh kiszka fanfiction#josh kiszka imagine
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Arnas needs to play a pirate. This man screams swashbuckler and roguish scallawag to me. Especially with that goatee he’s sporting. 🥵
#I know I had dreams of a fic with Sihtric and a Black Sails crossover#specifically a Charles Vane x OC x Sihtric doomed love story#I haven’t written in years at this point#but my daydreams are still there#sihtric imagine#sihtric#arnas fedaravicius#arnas superdelicious
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The Curse Of Hope
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Danny is in another universe. He had a reason, but he doesn’t remember anymore. He can only stare, horrified and disgusted, at the sickest city spirit he’s ever seen. Shivering and swaying with every step, core exposed, and ectoplasm leaking from wounds that are decades old. A ratty blanket was thrown over their shoulders, barely hiding the spirit’s pale grey skin and protruding black bones.
The spirit didn’t even sense him until he reached out to touch its wispy shoulders. The spirit flinched, clutching at the dozens of trinkets hanging from their neck and tucking in on themselves like they were expecting a blow.
“Oh, shit,” He swore, floating back a few feet, hands in the air, to show he meant no harm. “I’m sorry. I promise, I’m not here to steal from you.” The spirit shivered again and rolled a pearl necklace in between their fingers. A nervous habit. “Uh, I like that pocket watch? It’s very nice.”
That got their attention. They peeked at Danny, and he saw that more tattered cloth was covering their eyes, blending in with the stringy hair that reached the ground. Their blanket fluttered weakly, revealing hundreds of thousands of tiny marks etched into their skin. Scars, really. Scars that wrote out curse after curse onto the spirit’s very being. They burned with evil intent, and even reached inside the spirit’s body and wrapped around their core.
Occasionally, blinding specks of color raced across their body, temporarily erasing the writing, but it always returned quickly. He watched, a little detached, as one particular line rewrote itself across their rough forearm, drawing fresh ectoplasm like someone was writing it with a thin knife.
“Are you…alright?” Danny stuttered. A stupid question.
The spirit cocked its head. He couldn’t see their eyes, but he felt their burning gaze as they pondered the question.
“The pain of others becomes mine own.” They rasped. “The lights of the city dim as rotten wealth clogs mine veins. Magicks long forgotten have eaten mine skins, pulled mine cloak, and darkened mine skies. Helios has refused to grace mine doorstep, and the seasons of the Earth have revoked their kindness.”
Danny held his breath. It felt like he was the one with the exposed core, not the spirit.
The spirit shivered once more. “Tell mine soul, little lamb. How could this Forsaken City know peace, when it was long since ripped from mine hands?”
Shit, he needed Frostbite. And maybe Clockwork. Now.
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Danny meets the spirit of Gotham City. The villains and rogues that have plagued the city for decades are literal curses that are taking quite the toll on Gotham, and honestly, Danny isn’t sure how much longer they can hold out. The heroes seem to be doing some help, and are probably the reason Gotham made it this far, but the poor city needs help from the Realms if they want to get better.
Luckily, Danny can provide that help.
But only if he could get Gotham to leave their city behind. Because recovery is going to take a very long time.
#dpxdc#pondhead blurbs#Gotham is very lanky and tall and had dozens of necklaces around their neck#the necklaces are just cords filled with lost things the citizens have lost over the years#like bits of glass or wedding rings or hag stones made from a destroyed gargoyle#actually I have a weird picture of Gotham in my head I might draw it#it’s giving Bloodborne to me but idgaf#basically Danny meets Gotham and is trying to convince them to go with him for medical help because what the fuck#those curses are the equivalent of leaving hundreds of leeches stuck to your body for ten years#Danny is BEGGING Gotham to come with him#there’s potential for angst but if you want crack then Danny probably replaces Gotham#I think there’s already a similar fic where he becomes the new spirit of Gotham but I haven’t read all of that#anyways the Batfam are like#invasive animals that are actually helping the ecosystem recover from an even WORSE invasive species#but they aren’t supernatural heroes and they don’t understand that the issue is deeper#I’m calling this the Curse of Hope because Danny is offering hope to Gotham#but Gotham is just so tired and sick and hurt that they don’t want to risk it#they think Danny is another curse come to plague them#should he just straight up adopt the city at this point?#idk it probably depends on how it’s written#sad course is to let Gotham die. happy ending is where they are treated and returned#crack ending probably has Danny adopting the city and introducing them to his own city spirit Amity Park#oh shit is that a new ship#guys please I can’t keep doing this#Gotham City x Amity Park#how the fuck do you come up with a name for that#Burger Joints?#Wet Pavement?#bro idk I’m putting this down before I make something I might regret#low key wanna write this but like. I have so much to do
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Before the leaks tonight, my main notes in the department of “Izuocha not gonna be canon next chapter” is that tsu and Izuku were repeatedly chosen and placed to be in the same, worrying attitude for Ochako’s distance/absence.
Tsu was such a good subtle detail for this chapter as well. That gay ass signaling on Izuocha was so good. Like “this is platonic! Her and Izuku worry over Ochako equally!” And damn Horikoshi you really highlighted, underlined, and bolded in big bright letters Lavender Marriage for these two lmao
My other main detail is the way that Ochako’s/Izuku’s feelings are presented.
Specifically with this last little caption (that isn’t there in the officials for some reason???) on the very last page—
Pika’s translation btw
Maybe y’all don’t get it bc you need it put into perspective: the very idea that there would be a “no ships ending” is… absolutely insane. The fact that it’s the main opinion as well is even crazier.
And to put it into perspective even more, the reason it’s a common belief has to come from the idea that Ochako’s feelings are simply unrequited. A “no ships ending” wouldn’t make sense without it. Do the people saying that realize that it’s what they’re saying? “No time” isn’t a good justification, he had the time, he just used it on… other characters instead. If you believe this, you’re making the argument that Ochako’s story is about unrequited love
This line “The girl’s hidden feeings, and as for deku—..”
I fully understand what the feelings are talking about (Himiko’s death, the respective villains even if they aren’t equatable, etc), but it’s the implications of the way it’s written. It’s presenting it as Ochako’s feelings… for Izuku. It then asks the question, “..DOES Izuku feel the same way?” Because I mean, does he?
Now, I don’t think we’re getting any sort of confession. I could say in detail as to why, but that would be more like repeating the same 5 posts on my feed all week.
Because ultimately, it won’t happen. It’s another bait and switch, like it always is. And Horikoshi knows this.
So that’s why it’s so amazing that this line is here, it’s teasing, almost. Like “Look! The straight relationship is on the horizon! Just follow the cookie! It’s totally where you think it leads..”, and then signaling the warning bells in your head that not everything is as it seems.
Why make Ochako break down crying? Why not confirm Himiko’s death? Why make all of this romantic heartache? Why make straight shippers hold their breath, and then lead them into this supposed security?
Why ask a question on feelings, if it’s supposed to be a given?
#I promised myself I would post any sort of brief evidence on this before the leaks came out#but not when I’d actually written this#bc I’m ngl I wrote this like. almost a week ago. a day or two after the leaks came out.#I just felt like waiting since a lot of certain people decided to get weird and misogynistic all of a sudden. so here’s your slop.#this is a re-written brief version where I don’t go on three tangents on Izuku and Ochako’s characters#bkdk#togachako#I mean it when I said I waited to post this. luckily for me I didn’t see anyone else particularly point out these details before I did but-#GOD I haven’t been so angry at every part of this fandom in a while#trad wife misogyny to getting in the way of my gay ship misogyny I was so tired#and I better not see an even bigger spike in the 10% chance that Izuocha is canon. you can be sad without dismissing ochako#or I stg I’m becoming an Izuocha shipper full time people cannot be acting like this in the year of 2024#my Izuocha shipper threat is 1000% real and it’s only in the case that bitches don’t behave
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Tell me about cherry seeing Bob drunk for the first time :D
@wren-is-a-wreck also wanted to be tagged in this so here ya go! This was at first supposed to be head canons then I decided to just turn it into a little oneshot. I haven’t written anything like this in a very very long time so grant me grace! Also this takes place about a year before canon, when (in my headcanon) Cherry is a sophomore and bob is a junior.
This is inspired by multiple peoples posts, I cant remember all of them but they all get partial credit!!
when bob and cherry first started going out, he was her escape. Things were getting worse at home everyday, there were nights when her father wouldn’t come home at all and her mother would just lock herself in the bathroom, leaving cherry to spend hours sitting by the phone waiting for a call to tell her where he was. It took her a while to learn it was better if she just stayed in her room.
During all that, she had bob. Sometimes he’d come by the house to pick her up and they’d go to the drive in with all their friends, but Cherry best liked the nights when it was just the two of them. They’d drive around Tulsa for hours, and on those nights he would be sweet to her. it felt like they were the only two people in the world.
there were a lot of parts to Bob that he hid from her. he knew she didn’t like it when her friends got drunk, so he tried to avoid drinking too much when she was around. and when he got a bruise after jumping some kid on the east side, he laughed off her worry by telling her it was just from football practice. He sure got hurt a lot at football practice, didn’t he?
Things changed one night when Brill was hosting a party to celebrate the start of the school year- or at least that was how he advertised it. It was more an excuse to have a huge party and get drunk. With the way things were at home Cherry knew that pretending to be having fun at some big party wasn’t something she’d be able to do, so she asked Bob to lie to her friends and tell them she was sick. For a moment she was scared he wouldn’t do it, but he just smiled and kissed her, and told her of course he would. Things should’ve been perfect, but then her parents started screaming and even in their big house the walls wouldn’t cover up the noise of her father’s drunk bellowing voice. She called Bob and Marcia, and even Bev to see if she could crash at anyones house. No one picked up, she should have figured they’d all be at Brills. Desperate, she drove over to his house hoping Bob would be there and they could go on one of their drives and he could make her forget everything at home. That’s not what happened.
she saw him immediately when she walked in the door. He was laughing at something Trip had said and she knew in a moment that something was wrong. He noticed her and went over, putting his arm around her waist. The familiar putrid smell of alcohol filled her senses. He was drunk. She’d seen him drink before, taking a sip every so often out of his friends flask at the drive in, but she’d never seen it nearly as bad as this.
“Cherry! you told me you weren’t coming!” Bob slurred, a near unsettling smile on his face. He tried to lean down and kiss her, but she moved away from him. She saw a dark flash cross his face and for a moment, it was like she was looking at her father.
“Bob, how much have you had to drink?” Cherry accused him,
“Cherry whats wrong…”
“Bob you’re drunk. Really drunk,”
“cmon it’s not that bad-” Bob tried to reach towards Cherry again, but she flinched away. He wasn’t acting like himself, he seemed dangerous.
“Cherry lets go,” Marcia urged, appearing at Cherrys side.
“Cherry stay…” Bob pulled cherry towards him again, this time with more force, and she shoved him away from her
“I’m not going anywhere with you!” She said, stepping back and clutching Marcia’s hand. It felt like the entire world was holding its breath. Cherry shook her head, then turned around and walked out of the door, Marcia quickly following.
Cherry spent that night at Marcia’s house, and the next afternoon when she finally went home she recognized the corvette sitting outside of her house, with a boy holding a bouquet of pink roses (her favorite) and a large box of chocolates- he knew she could never resist chocolate.
and so he apologized, something he couldn’t remember ever doing in earnest. He groveled, even. And she forgives him because of course she does. On days like this when he looks at Cherry as though the entire world orbits solely around her it’s impossible to say no.
He avoids drinking for a while after that, and doesn’t drink around cherry at all. But eventually he slips, and looses the ability to care as much. Cherry gets used to it, still using halfhearted attempts to get him to put his flask away. At least he’s good at not getting truly drunk around her. But jealousy drives him to eventually break that rule and jealousy gets him killed
#Sorry this probably sucks#I hope it doesn’t!!#Anyways this drove me insane in the best possible way#They’re so fascinating#Also hello I haven’t written fanfiction in probably three years what#And now these fucking characters changed that ig#Sharing my writing is lowkey terrifying#Even if this is hardly even a story it’s more just like plot points#Also Cherry liking chocolate was definitely me feeding the cherrycola fans#I hope all this was in character!#It is about a year before canon#So take that#jean has thoughts#the outsiders musical#the outsiders broadway#the outsiders#cherry valance#bob sheldon#the outsiders headcanons#bob x cherry#cherry x bob
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“You’d better watch yourself, boy.”
Taunting, maybe even condescending, and yeah it rankles. It digs into that huge chip on his shoulder, Louis calling him boy. But what the fuck ever, he’ll allow it. Tonight, just the once, he’ll allow it.
“And why would I do that, Louis? Thought that’s what I’ve got you for.”
Or; the vampire bond and the bond between vampires, in contraposition
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There’s a worm in my brain named danlou and it told me to write this.
#girl the old man yaoi is HITTING i haven’t written fic in THREE YEARS#the titular vampire#louis de pointe du lac#ldpdl#daniel molloy#the vampire daniel#daniel iwtv#iwtv#interview with the vampire#fic#fanfic#fanfiction#my fic#danlou#loudaniel#daniel x louis#armand iwtv#<- he’s mentioned i think i can tag him
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Missing Dottore Hours 🫶
#I say this like he doesn’t live in my head rent free#like I haven’t written like 75k words this year for this fucker#I need to sit and read some fics at some point pls gimme reccs
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does anyone else feel like they need to Make Fan Content That Is Also Good And Interesting in order to make/keep internet friends so as to be worth other people’s time
#the internet is one big networking tool#genuine question because like. i know it’s unhealthy but i also feel like that’s kind of the economy created by the internet#i’m not advocating it and i’m also not trying to be self-deprecating#i was never great at art and i haven’t posted anything i’ve written in like 5 years#like for example. i put off making a dragon age blog for a while bc i don’t Do anything. even now that ive made it i feel like i don’t have#a leg to stand on to talk to my mutuals. we are always competing for attention on the internet#i’ve known a few people where like. i thought we were actual friends and not just fandom colleagues but i always felt like i had fo Prove I#Was Talented to keep them interested and like. again not healthy but i’m wondering how common that is#maybe that is just fandom colleague behavior and i misread the situation but uh#also to be clear i’m not trying to like. blame anyone or victimize myself#i’m mostly curious because i have seen people talk about how making friends on the internet is so much easier and i’m wondering#where that idea came from. bc i still think it’s hard. but i wonder if it’s easier if you’re one already posting Original And Interesting#Content. i mostly just make memes and meta at this point and it doesn’t get a lot of attention. which is fine#i’ve just found it markedly harder to meet people since i switched tacks#one of the reasons i burned out tbh. among other things. i’ve been picking writing up again but i don’t post anymore#honestly realizing this has probably bitten me in the ass before bc i’ve had friends who share stuff they’re proud of and i don’t jump on it#bc to me i’m trying to be like ‘you don’t have to prove yourself to me. i like you as a person’#but probably comes off like ‘i don’t care about the things you care about’. hm#mine
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playing ff.xiv blind as a th.ancred fan from the beginning is so funny. “hmm i wonder where than is- WHAT DO YOU MEAN HE WAS POSSESSED BY ONE OF THE MOST POWERFUL BEINGS IN THE UNIVERSE….....” “hmm i wonder what happened to than after he was teleported from the- HIS ABILITY TO INTERACT WITH THE NATURAL ENERGY OF THE WORLD WAS SEVERED AND HE HAD TO FEND FOR HIMSELF FOR MONTHS IN THE MIDDLE OF NOWHERE????” “yaay than gets to help us with planning our defenses :D- DID HE JUST DIEoh he’s not dead his soul was just RIPPED AWAY TO ANOTJEJR WORLD????!?!?” “ohh he gets to fight r.yne’s awful guardian figure i wonder what he’s gonna- DID HE JUST DIEoh he’s fine nevermind he gets to have resolved character development now :)” “aww okay we get to go to the end of the universe together, and he’s already gone through so much so clearly nothing bad will happen to hDID HE J
#lem text#🌊#xivposting#he never ever ever ever gets a break it’s so funny. i’m sure the game is done messing with him now for dt but AGJFNWZKR#literally as SOON as the i.frit fight happens in arr he never gets to rest until the end of shb.#like okaayyy *overworks self to the point of aetheric vulnerability or whatever -> is used as a tool for bringing about a terrible calamity#-> teleported to the wilderness never able to use magic again or interact with the world normally; unsure if friends are alive for months#-> learns that sister-figure is missing and then learns that she is basically dead -> angst arc while trying to hide all of problems#-> thinks he gets a chance to rest and is literally yoinked from his world on accident with nothing he can do about it;#forced to adapt to a whole other planet overflowing with its own tragedies with no way of contacting anyone he knows#-> discovers that sister-figure has been basically reincarnated; takes on responsibility to save her#-> manages to do so after TWO YEARS but still hasn’t gotten over grief -> has to be a parent on the run with daughter-figure now#-> waiting as random stranger tries & fails to summon the hero from his world; evading government in a land only a fraction the size of his#-> spends THREE MORE YEARS running from authorities with daughter who reminds him too much of sister-figure; is still hiding all problems#-> can only solve his problems by almost dying; apparently. does so. life becomes good until he decides he has to almost die again#-> DOES SO. and then life becomes good again. problems mayhap still not processed. average th.ancred waters lifestyle#i think his story has a big theme of like. lack of agency; and i could talk more about it but i just think it’s really interesting and sad-#that his whole childhood (limsa+sharlayan) was out of his control with his life path being chosen for him out of necessity+circumstance#he was brought to sharlayan so young and then The Incident happens at *17* indebting him to min.filia bc he sees himself responsible#and then gigantic life-changing things happen to him *also* out of his control (hinterlands+the first)#and when he finally gets to pick a long-term route for himself he fucks it up! doing everything intentionally but hurting r.yne for years!#he’s the FIRST ONE SUMMONED TO THE FIRST… A NEW WORLD… IT WAS LIKE A FRESH START… AND AUGJF HDH . IDK DO YOU GET IT.#i haven’t written this many tags in forever i guess i have to put it in the:#lem ramblings#ok i’m done. thancrebbbbbdd <3. goodnight <3.
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Gnawing at my enclosure bc I ran out of JJ fics to read
#I’m rereading the same ones#and don’t get me wrong#they hit every time#but I need more content#to the point that I’m considering writing something#and I haven’t written a fic in years
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Me: *has several WIPs I could possibly work on, including an Ehuang and Suiren-centric piece and the Mermaid AU, among countless other ideas*
My brain: Write a soul crushing and emotionally conflicting Haya prequel fic that details exactly how she became a walking piece of shit and makes the reader sympathise with her despite everything :)
#I’ve actually had one in the docs for a while#it’s only a bit over 800 words#but I haven’t opened it since last summer#I think what’s stopping me is that I don’t really know where to take it#I have a possible first chapter pretty much written out in my head#focusing on her initial loss of innocence when her parents die#and logically the last one would be her POV of the first time she hit Suiren#her point of no return. so to speak#but idk what to do in the middle#her struggles in raising her brother when she’s only 14 and unprocessed grief over her parents. yes. but there needs to be a connecting line#probably her and Ghazan drifting further and further away from one another. him meeting Ming-Hua#and eventually running off#or something like that. idrk yet#just realised before I get into any of that I have to name their dad still lmao#he’s just been afarin’s husband in my head for over a year I’m so sorry#will probably get on that soon.#most likely after I recover so my brain can think properly#writing woes#technically
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never done the whole “what if i made this established character my inquisitor” but suddenly i’m thinking about several
#i gotta finish my current one first. i gotta finish bg3. and then i gotta do the amell i’ve been sitting on#and THEN i can do these. but honestly by that point i might not have time before veilguard#the obvious one. bethany. and then i can actually romance josie and it’ll be like the fic i still haven’t written 5 years later#but also what if you just made straight up one of your companions lol#obviously they all have unique hair but the closest approximation#mine
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the thing about death note for me is like I think it’s almost really good I think it just miss the marks on two things:
light is a way weaker “genius” type character then L and it feels a tiny bit like a contrivance he makes it that far
good lird this show can’t women
#I could forgive that first point if misa wasn’t written like that#<- there are dn posts on my dash and discord#btw I haven’t rewatched it since being sick as hell last year so take these takes with a grain of salt
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For Valentine's can you drae some good ole Papa and Gurtrude?
This ask was originally sent in 2020, so as an apology for taking So Dang Long, I did more than one picture.
Happy Valentines Day 2023!!!
I’ll be doing the recent asks as well, maybe not with this much effort but they’re getting done!! <3
#taleblr#papa acachalla#gertrude acachalla#papa and gertrude#taleblr acachallas#i tried rendering? or at least what i think it is?#i dunno#hope the colorful picture looks good <3#i haven’t written for them in awhile so they may be somewhat Ooc but. Idk i thought it worked gjfhds#idk how much the fandom likes papa and gertrude#heck i barely considered it that much until like. this year. Which is egg on my face.#… Hope this looks cute tho#Also you can see my first real attempts of drawing acne on a character on gertrude <3#it’s not much of an attempt or very obvious#but it’s a starting point#admittedly looks like freckles but we all gotta start somewhere#Michael if you’re out there…..#hi#hope you like the picture <3
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AHHHHH this song is so heartbreaking 💔
I feel like it could make for really good sad & angsty seb x mc fanfic inspo though, not going to lie….someone please write it so I don’t have to 😅
Why can’t I listen to music anymore without thinking about these Slytherin boys?
#I literally don’t stop thinking about these two though#but this song though#it broke my heart the first time I heard it#personal thoughts#not that I don’t want to write it but I haven’t written anything in four years or something like that#and I have zero confidence in my abilities at this point#and you all are so talented like omg#Youtube
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